— unpredictable thoughts

We are humbled by this darkness.

We are hum­bled by this dark­ness. We feel hope­less, help­less and lost.

It took me some time to write about read­ing this let­ter. Until I read this my whole feel­ing about what hap­pened in Vir­ginia was a numb­ing drone. No oppor­tu­nity to reflect on the loses and sor­row.
When I read this I cried.

Imag­ine for a moment you are this sister.

The state­ment by Sun-Kyung Cho, sis­ter of Seung-Hui Cho, on behalf of her­self and her family:

On behalf of our fam­ily, we are so deeply sorry for the dev­as­ta­tion my brother has caused. No words can express our sad­ness that 32 inno­cent peo­ple lost their lives this week in such a ter­ri­ble, sense­less tragedy. We are heartbroken.

We grieve along­side the fam­i­lies, the Vir­ginia Tech com­mu­nity, our State of Vir­ginia, and the rest of the nation. And, the world.

Every day since April 16, my father, mother and I pray for stu­dents Ross Abdal­lah Alamed­dine, Brian Roy Bluhm, Ryan Christo­pher Clark, Austin Michelle Cloyd, Matthew Gre­gory Gwalt­ney, Caitlin Mil­lar Ham­maren, Jeremy Michael Herb­stritt, Rachael Eliz­a­beth Hill, Emily Jane Hilscher, Jar­rett Lee Lane, Matthew Joseph La Porte, Henry J. Lee, Par­tahi Mamora Halo­moan Lum­ban­toruan, Lau­ren Ash­ley McCain, Daniel Patrick O’Neil, J. Ortiz-Ortiz, Minal Hiralal Pan­chal, Daniel Ale­jan­dro Perez, Erin Nicole Peter­son, Michael Steven Pohle, Jr., Julia Kath­leen Pryde, Mary Karen Read, Reema Joseph Samaha, Waleed Mohamed Shaalan, Leslie Geral­dine Sher­man, Max­ine Shelly Turner, Nicole White, Instruc­tor Christo­pher James Bishop, and Pro­fes­sors Joce­lyne Couture-Nowak, Kevin P. Granata, Liviu Librescu and G.V. Loganathan.

We pray for their fam­i­lies and loved ones who are expe­ri­enc­ing so much excru­ci­at­ing grief. And we pray for those who were injured and for those whose lives are changed for­ever because of what they wit­nessed and experienced.

Each of these peo­ple had so much love, tal­ent and gifts to offer, and their lives were cut short by a hor­ri­ble and sense­less act.

We are hum­bled by this dark­ness. We feel hope­less, help­less and lost. This is some­one that I grew up with and loved. Now I feel like I didn’t know this person.

We have always been a close, peace­ful and lov­ing fam­ily. My brother was quiet and reserved, yet strug­gled to fit in. We never could have envi­sioned that he was capa­ble of so much violence.

He has made the world weep. We are liv­ing a nightmare.

There is much jus­ti­fied anger and dis­be­lief at what my brother did, and a lot of ques­tions are left unan­swered. Our fam­ily will con­tinue to coop­er­ate fully and do what­ever we can to help author­i­ties under­stand why these sense­less acts hap­pened. We have many unan­swered ques­tions as well.

Our fam­ily is so very sorry for my brother’s unspeak­able actions. It is a ter­ri­ble tragedy for all of us.